❤(✿◕‿◕) (◕‿◕｡)❤ My Love for u is Eternity.

Come back to me !

2009-02-05T01:14:00.005+08:00

Be with me ~

Dun let me feel that i am going through this alone

Don't abandon me

i need you ...

i believe God u will bring me out of this

Give me a way , a solution...

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Although in the mist of all this ,

i still choose to put on a smile where ever i go

JANELLE the love of my life

she never fails to make me feel love

she may be fierce most of the time

but she is willing to spend the time to talk to me

although words like "i love you" seldom come out from her mouth

but i still appreciate the things she do for me

she knows my inside out...

i can never hide anything from her

whenever we share ... there will be no end...

i can just pour out everything to her...

: Janelle you have really grown alot, mature in terms of thinking and the way you choose to handle things ...

happy to see you growing step by step ...

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PEIXUAN the nightcat for me :

though we have only known each other for not more than a year,

but true enough u are a great fren ...

you dun mind throwing away all ur time and just focus on talking to me...

maybe most of the time it's u telling me ur problems.

but it's great to be able to share with you ...

no matter how late u will still be available for me ...

u always give me encouragement and assurance that i can do it...

thank you ~

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JOVIN the joy in my life:

i realise that i still have her in school to keep my day bright

whenever she smile it'll just make me smile too...

sometimes listening to her talk non stop can make me happy too

at least she is sharing her life to me ...

very naturally i will start to share with her

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CHARLENE the sunshine in my life :

despite of all the things she has to do,

facing her own personal problem

she never fails to give me encouragement...

she can tell when i'm sad...

and she will come and counsel me

spend time talking to me ....

thank you charlene~

I am glad that i still have them in my life ,

You girls mean so much to me ...

* It's Gone *

2009-02-03T01:31:00.004+08:00

I no longer feel close to anyone...
I feel like i'm in my own world again...
I lost it , totally lost it...
Seeing Heshen and XR even my Darr really growing
they become so close to the people whom i used to be so close with ...
always seeing them having fun,
hearing that they go out with each other
i felt left out somehow.
i just feel awkward when we get tgt
like a missing piece of puzzle that just can't fit in.
Sometimes i will just walk away just to avoid the awkward feeling...

Maybe u all will say do something abt it then ,
Maybe u all will say start moving too...
Maybe u all have already given up ...

Emotions lock up...
The close feeling , " Family " it's no longer there
am i at fault at the first place?
to be so nonsense...
not catching up...

i'm sorry i just have to post all my emotions out...
to make myself feel better...

2009-01-10T10:09:00.002+08:00

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.
When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .....Find a guy ..
who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

N level is stressing me out ...

2009-01-07T00:53:00.003+08:00

Haix...
I am sick again ...
having fever on & off...
it's just so terribly

I've really make a point that this year can't be like last year already ...
slack slack all that
so yeah...
it's just the 3rd day of school nia but i already so shag ...
just take a look at me can le...
i look super old sudddenly...
so qiao cui...
so many datelines to meet ...
i will soon go crazy le ...

no one is there to encourage or be there for me ...
it really feels terribly...
everyday end school i make my way home to study le
i am just not used to the way it is now but i will need to get used to it...
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to be honest i have the thought of suicide AGAIN...
wrong ... everything is wrong ...
i really need to cry my all out...

i seem so unhappy recently...
in my relationship :
some things i have to watch out for...
some things i need to try not to do...
some things i can't do...
it became rather dry...
i dunno if i should do sth abt it or sit still & just wait...
i can slowly see the changes though...

in my family :
i dunno whether to love them even more or continue to have the needle in my heart
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Finally it's today...

2008-12-27T00:57:00.003+08:00

Christmas has just ended ...
it's gonna be new year soon
so fast , time pass just so fast
hmmm... Didn't had a really good christmas though
didn't celebrate at all ...
recieve a bag from darr for present
a pencil box from my darling
lol both of them preparing me to go back to school already ar...

Today is the day !
w193 thanksgiving & multiplication day
sad to know that my mama is in enyao's group
will miss her alot...
MAMA i love you ~
Haix but what to do ...
meow !

Happy Happy ...
weiling will stay in w193 !
was quite emotional when she tell me that we might be in diff cell the other time

haha so funny...

12.12.08 is The Day i Officially Turn Sweet 16

2008-12-13T02:57:00.003+08:00

ALL MY NICE NICE PRESENTS FOR THIS YEAR'S B DAY :
Got more to come ~

JANELLE GIVE DE ... I SUPER DUPER LOVE IT LA !

RAWR ... DARR DARR GIVE DE MINI TIGGER BOASTER

LM & WL GIVE ME TIGGER MONEY BANK~
MUST SAVE MONEY !!! =X

More Happy bday wish today :

1.24pm : Janelle! <333

2.50pm : Darr ~<333

8.47pm : Yuehan kor

After my b day le also got ppl wish me haha...

12.06 am : POLAR KOR !!!

12.19 am : Weiling my leader !!!

A msg from Weiling:

Thank God for putting you in my team. You've been grown a lot since you step in to church. Just want you to know, i really appreciate the things you have done to help me in my team. Continue to grow strong for greater things have yet to come. DOn't focus on the minor focus on the major. Put more trust in God. I believe your destiny is more than this yeah. Hold on to the promises and stand firm in Your faith. Once again Happy 16th birthday

haha=X

she wanna be the last to wish me happ b day ...

and indeed she is the last lol !!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ! =D

2008-12-12T01:28:00.009+08:00

AT LAST ...
It's finally my birthday !!!

officially turn sweet 16 !

this year's b day abit special bahh hahaha

not really have any celebration ...

hmmmm....

but nvm la =D

okok...

These following ppl wish me HAPPY B DAY !!!

one thing that shocked me the most is my CCA leader...

i dun even really talk to her or maybe not so much le

but she sms and wish me happy birthday !!!

and she is the first to wish me

i feel so touched !

12 am :

CCA LEADER (Ziren)
WESLEY
ANNABEl
PEI XUAN
TECK LOON

12.02am :

WEI PING

12.04am :

JOYCE MAMA <333

12.15am :

STEPHANIE

12.32am :

KIAT LEONG =D

1.29am :

JING GUO

2.06am :

KENNETH

2.38am :

DENISE

2.55am :

MATTHEW

Thx ppl !!! =x

u are the ones that put the smile on my face !

LOVE U GUYS LOTS !

<< CAT CAT COLLECTION >>

2008-12-11T00:52:00.002+08:00

Counting the everyday ~

2008-12-04T20:18:00.004+08:00

It's been quite some time since i last post already
to say honestly , i haven been doing quite well...
everyday is like another boring day for me
nothing much intresting for me to look forward to.
wake up late at afternoon...
sleep late at night...
all these same old things have been going on for few weeks le
until ...

Two days ago ,
Pei xuan wasn't quite doing well also so she came to my hse to slack
stayed at my hse from morning till almost 10 plus at night
both of us actually decided to have a mini prayer meeting
we started off worshipping only...
then i tell her
why dun we use this time to ask God to renew us & really ask God to speak to us
as we continue to worship
the pressence of God become stronger
i can say that it was really a breakthrough
we keep praying keep praying
until we didn't even realise the time le
prayed for more than an hour plus
Thanks pei xuan for really spending the time to pray with me (:
I'm renewed & refreshed !!!
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Next up !
MY BIRTHDAY IS DRAWING NEAR !!!

WOOTS ...
then i will officially be 16 years old le hahahahaha

looking forward to this date : 12/12/2008
heh heh heh =D

hmmmm wonder what susprises i will get ...
who will celebrate for me

who will wish me happy b day first

really getting excited abt it le !

My wish list :

-Ipod nano (Lime Green )

-Dresses

-These books (True stories ) :

Mummy's Witness by Galye sanders
Nowhere to run by Judy Westwater
My story by Dave pelzer

- Tigger Tigger !!!

- Flower Flower ^^v

hmmm i dunno still got wad ~

shall update again later

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1st Year anni

2008-11-13T21:56:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA...

Just a few edited photo nia . still got more ~

shall update soon ^^

Using ur strength, i can stand up again ~

2008-10-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry Dear readers...
was busy looking for part time Job & in a holiday mood
slack slack thats y so long nv update

So So many things happen during this few months
Family , School , Relationships
Was wondering how come suddenly so many things happen at the same time
then i recall
it's actually i ownself ask from God de
I keep asking for Breakthrough in this area that area...
hahaha...
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Dunno why
suddenly super in love with candles
these few days or rather weeks
i keep going to different places to play with candles
Just by lighting up them , see them glow
makes me very happy
i will immediately have a smile on my face~
i guess it's a way to relax myself bahh

Last few days i went to the playground at tanan merah ...
And while playing ...
God Reveal sth to me ...
I got a video for it :

God remind me sth...
In life , we will come across many trails ...
these trails will just continue to come ...
it will never end ...
Sometimes we might fall...
there may be times that we will feel lost too
Just like the candles, i keep lighting it but the wind keep blowing the flame off
But only one thing...
By using the strength of God, we can still stand up again ~
I can always depend on my God !

HAPPY B DAY MUMMY!!!

2008-10-30T10:25:00.000+08:00

Celebrated my mummy's b day
Hahahahaha ....
Spent all my allowance on mummy's present lol
So gonna go n biscuts & milk diet le
LOL...
But it's worth it ok !
I LOVE MY MUMMY~
Here are some pictures :

My Brother anyhow-ing

Strawberry Sweetheart

Daddy buy de cake cake

HAIX HAIX HAIX !!!

2008-10-19T01:46:00.003+08:00

[[ I'VE ALREADY LOST ALL THAT I HAVE ]]

It's so hard nowadays

Dunno what to do ~

i feel so tired

i wanna continue

but i just feel so tired

just let u do it the way that u wan

but it become my fault in the end

I do know where i'm wrong at

I've tried but it's not enough...

Lost , Confuse ...

What to do now ?

It's so argh !!!

I totally can't control my emotion anymore

I will just cry on the bus suddenly

or even when walking halfway home

What is this ???

Family, Relationship, Friends...

feel so useless

feel so silly

feel so angry with myself

totally totally lost

I no longer know what you want

Tell me please

Don't keep quiet

I very xin ku liddat

I need support too u know~

2008-10-12T01:25:00.004+08:00

Exam is finally over
it's time to relax abit le !
hahahahaha ~

I really gonna thank God for giving me the strength
to last through this whole exam period
although so many things happen at home all that

I'm really happy !
My mum came into my room , sit down & gave me a hug ...
she actually gave me the assurance that no matter what happen
she, daddy , my brother & i
the four of us will always be the one family
that nth can seperate us
and that no matter what , even if me & my aunt fight again ...
she will not allow my aunt to cause anymore physical hurt to me
cause she know it's time she gonna protect

My Brother actually came and gave me a big hug !
this is like the first time he give me a hug after three years la
I actually find it hard or dunno how to love my brother because of an incident that happen at home last time .
it makes me so hurt that i just closed up and dunno how to love him
but i just felt so touch when he hug me so tight
made me feel so loved
regardless of how bad i treat him
but just that one hug of his made my heart melts

K larhh i shall post the rest of the things some other time
cause it's late and i gonna catch up on my beauty sleep le
TaTa ~
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..:: Stars Stars ::..

2008-10-06T03:03:00.004+08:00

OMG OMG larhh !!!
i'ts now 3:00Am in the morning le
hahahahahahahahahaha
i'm still not asleep wor

Was looking out the window just now
cos someone told me when around 2 or 3 liddat
the clouds will start to clear
that will be the best time to look into the skies
because all the stars stars will be so clear to you
and it's so true !!!
it's actually the first time in my life looking at so many stars !!!
hahahahahaha

All the small small star which normally around 8 plus 9 cannot see de lorh
all blinking blinking at me sia
make me so damm happy =x
i see one row of 3 stars stars
some got colour de lorh
i also dunno why also
hahahahahahaha
got Red,Blue,and Green wor !
believe it or not
go see lorh hahaha
of cos must be the day that got no rain then can see all these beautiful star star

Tata ~
Gonna continue enjoying looking at my stars stars le

This Deep scar in my heart; I feel like running away

2008-10-06T00:36:00.004+08:00

Really feel so tired le
Haix ~
totally no strength to continue this battle
Grant me the strength of urs God

I need ur Love so much
I need someone to care
I need to feel ur peace
I need a hug so much
I NEED YOU ~

LOVE turning into HATE
This is terribly
I don't wanna Hate
but things just get out of control
everyday when i get home
i feel the awkwardness when ever i see u

I cry almost everytime when i think of all these past
those emotional hurts & physical hurts
It can never be erase
How to stand up again i wonder
How will my life be next time bringing all these past with me
I am totally lost already

I feel alone at home
like no one to encourage me
No one to support me
i ask myself " Is my teenage life suspose to be like this ? or should it be happier ? "

Teach me how to LOVE again
Teach me to be Strong
Teach me Learn how to control my emotion
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Regardless of all this which has happen
i still wanna thank someone who have been there for me all this while
Thx for ur concern
Thx for ur Love
Thx for ur encouragment
Thx for comforting me when i'm crying ( i know i sound super awful )
Thx for listening all my complains
Thx for spending time with me at night to chat
Thx for the attemp to put me to sleep wor LOL

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Exam is gonna end soon
but i still feel scared
about my math
hmmmmm...
not been able to focus on my exam also
because of all the things happening at home
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2008-09-29T01:54:00.005+08:00

Usher celebrated my B day in advance !!!
woots !!!

sry guys !!!
exam is here will be M.I.A-ing ^^

* STRESS STRESS *

2008-09-19T00:23:00.005+08:00

Mummy cat feeding her baby kitten [[ In my school de hahaha.]] I edit dao so cute ! =X Jealous ? Me & Baobeii ate this ! wakakaka

cute cute look aiyo !

[[ Sweetie sweetie ]]

{{{{{ *SIGH* }}}}}

I'm sorry i have to start my post with that big big Sigh ~

Seriously stressing up already larhh !!!

EOY EXAM is in less than 10 days !

and i can tell u i'm not quite prepared!

espcially my math !

DAMM !

i can die just trying to understand how to do !

These few weeks has been a really hard time for me

Emotionally,Physically...

Got a few times i'm so stressed up that i just came home

the first thing that i do is fell down on my bed and cry

That stress just seem to overtake me totally called Darr Darr & told him what happen...

He see me liddat. keep asking me " Dun Cry le larhh Darr ~ "

i can hear his voice change

HE CRIED ALSO!

He say he heart pain to see me liddat

then eventually he get kind of pek chek cos he dunno how to help me

AIYO ~ SO CUTE =x

I Love to see him cry ! *muhahaha*

Not say i bad larhh

but really very cute marhh =p

Stayed up late at night just to cover up each subjects

those need to learn de

in the end go to school feel like sleeping

can't really concentrate . Make me Super pek chek

Guess i got bad time managment. Dunno how to manage my time to study T_T

BLAH BLAH BLAH larhh ~

enough of all this stress stress things bahh

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Sweetie went over to Baobeii's house to stay for a few days

as Jerel's parents went overseas

then no one to take care of her

BTW , Sweetie is a cute little doggy ^^

Haha went over to play with sweetie

She so cute larhh !

keep licking me LOL

i reach the door nia then she jump here jump there le

then i sit down, she jump up then lick dao my lips lorhh haha =x

aiyo ! I Love her larhh !!!

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Just one week ago,

was our 10th month together !

hahahaha =x

Just wanna say i'm still lovin you lots !

No. Actually I hate you leh

1) Stupid attitude !

2) Naggy Naggy~ (Girls should be the one doing that i thought )

3) Stupid last minute thing

4) Reminders after Reminders

5) Always ask me "EAT MORE" ... TSK !

6) Always ask me "SLEEP EARLY"

LOL i'm just joking !

Baby how can i hate u !

I Love u with all my fats man

no larhh

I LOVE YOU TILL MY LAST BREATHE TAKES ME AWAY!!!

Ok fine i dunno y today i so high wakakakaka !

BABY !!!

U still owe me my :

. Something that is in ORANGE ! *HINT HINT*

. SAKAE SUSHI!

. BAO BAO!

. KISSES !

LOL BLEAH =p

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Ehhhhh i think i shall stop here first bahh

now is already 11 plus

still dun sleep later kena scolding from Darr again liao

hahaha

BABY Muacks !

TATA !

I LOVE YOU !

♥ MY LOVE LANGUAGE ~

2008-09-15T21:50:00.001+08:00

Mine :
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probably
Receiving Gifts
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results
Receiving Gifts: 9
Physical Touch: 7
Words of Affirmation: 6
Acts of Service: 4
Quality Time: 4

Darr Darr's :
The Five Love Languages
Your primary love languages are probably
Quality Time and Receiving Gifts

Complete set of results
Quality Time: 8
Receiving Gifts: 8
Words of Affirmation: 6
Acts of Service: 5
Physical Touch: 3

>STRESSING IN PROGRESS<

2008-09-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone ~
I will be MIA-ing for this period of time
however will see when free then post abit bahh
Preparing for my EOY so very stress T_T
Do pray for me ^^

MUACKS

2008-09-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

BABY ~
HAPPY 10th MONTH !!!
I LOVE YOU !!!
PS. I'm Currently chiong-ing for my Chemistry
So just drop by to post abit nia ^^
MUACKS ~

I was shocked !!!

2008-09-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

Back to school again ~

3 more weeks to EOY le

i really chionging chioning le

really wonder if i can make it hmmmm...

Tried as hard as possible to pay attention in class

things work out quite well actually

i was able to absorb hat the teacher is talking abt

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Early in the morning i kena Gastric pain !!!

Sian Sian de ~

cause pain till i gonna bend down

recess time dare not eat too mush also scared that it will get worst

so ate porriage only ~

Nice Nice i love it haha!

As usual After school went to meet Darr to have lunch

then Went home le

Both of us will be meeting lesser & won't have much time for each other le

cause need to Chiong for EOY

First thing that shock me or rather made me real happy is that Baby ownself come & tell me that he wanna learn how to pray !!!

I nv expect him to tell me that at all !!!

Second thing is our conversation on phone before sleep

Me:Darr how come u so quiet ?

Darr: Cause not so noisy lorhh ...

Me: -__-" Okie ~

Darr: Actually just now i tried to pray but i dunno how ~Haix !

Me: U Wan me to pray with you isit ?

Darr: Yarhh ~ But i dunno how to leh.

Me: We can both pray together ar!!!

Darr: OK ! ^^

[[ After Praying ]]

Me: DO YOU WANT ? to know how to pray ?

Darr: Yarhh Just That i really dunno how lorhh T_T

Me: AH hahaha~ If u really have a desire for it,ask it from God & he will grant you Ur desire!

[[ Share Share experience ]]

etc etc~

Woots larhh !

heh heh ~

To see him growing each day made me feel Joy

He sometimes will just share things with me that will just made me feel so whao !

Like what Pastor Tan share the other day ~

His msg was really Great!!!

It let me meditate for awhile ~

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I do have some prayer request ^^ :

-Health

-Studies

-Spritual walk with God

-Serving in usher

-Friends ( Be Able To Influence Others )

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IT's CALLED L.O.V.E

2008-09-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

[[ It's called L.O.V.E ]]

x_x T I R E D x_x

2008-09-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

Was a super restless day for me
maybe because i'm still not feeling well....
Hmmm i believe i will get well soon bahh
have been rather weak recently
or rather i'm always that weak LOL
little bit little bit sick liao T_T

Woke up at 10am today
thought baby will be here knocking on the door le to call me open door for him de
but to my disspointment
DUN HAVE T_T
so i called him
HE STILL SLEEPING !!!
What a pig ~
Haix ! so in the end make till nv come le lorhh
sian sian ...
watch movie & edit photos all that
around 2 plus i super headache then went to rest awhile before preparing to go church
asked baby to wake me up at 3
he wake me up le but i fell back to sleep
sleep until 4 lorhh
immediately up out of bed go bath & stuff
make my headache even worst~ sobx~
Met Baby & kenneth at Tanan Merah Mrt
hahaha ... Today first time usher duty on my own scary scary de
but still alright~
i find myself serving with joy everytime
hahahahaha !!!

Alright today is JIAYI's BIG DAY !!!
It's her BIRTHDAY !!!
Me & weiling rush down to TM to take the ice cream cake then rush back
actually wan give jiayi a big susprise de
but somehow screwed up liao ~
Felt abit bad leh
ANYWAY !!!
just wanna say a big thak you to Jiayi
for being there for us all the time
U are truely a good leader
WE LOVE YOU !!!
lots of love love ~

shall update the rest of the things tmr ~
sorry cause i'm super tired le !!!
Love Lots !

SLACKING IS HEALTHY =X

2008-09-03T21:29:00.001+08:00

Morning meet Baobeii first

stupid son pang seh us

say wan whole family meet de

then say tired only

then sleep sleep sleep = no meet le

Baby went to book chalet with Justin & XR after school

sad sad

he going chalet then i not going

3 days cant see him le lorhh

he ask me go then at night go home dun stay overnight

cause all tabo

9 somemore

i was like thinking if he ask me stay overnight how ar?

stay overnight ? NONONO ~

LOL~

Went to the airport with baobeii & babyboo after that

Met him at the airport

he took 1 hour plus just to reach =.="

so near only lorhh

me & baobeii wait till sian le

haha but at the same time had fun slacking & playing with the fries LOL

Slack until errrr i forget what time le then go home with baobeii le
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I FINALLY KNEW ~

2008-09-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

Hosanna - Hillsong

Hmmm what to say leh ~
Alot of ups and downs these few days
I finally came to realise i'm wrong abt something
I thought the comfirmation is really the real comfirmation
but i'm wrong~
TY for telling me so much things~
It did make me woke up

I thought everything is fine
but actually it's not really so
I thought that u're doing well
but the answer is not really

I've side track abit
Lost sth in the spirit
After i put down the phone
i went into ur pressence
i ask u to guide me once again
clean my heart once more
refresh me
fill me with the holy spirit
fill me with your love
open up my eyes to see the things that is right
make me think in another way
let me see the depth
instead of the surface

I asked myself this
whether i still wanna continue?
or just give up like this?
I asked myself what is my purpose ?
What is my vision ?
Where am i heading ?
Who am i living for ?
I recall~
I think~
I've let you down
Sorry Lord~

~!@#$%^&*

2008-09-02T18:46:00.001+08:00

I TOLD U HOW MANY THOUSAND TIMES I CAN'T STAND THAT FEELING !

IT JUST HURTS ME ~

2008-08-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

Baby ~

To tell u honestly

I was shock when u said " LIKE FATHER , LIKE DAUGHTER MA "

only u know what i mean~

I was totally stun when i heard that

I kept quiet for awhile

suddenly my mind went blank

my heart feel like a knife just being stab in

I knew i've lost something already

i dunno what to do

tears start forcing out of my eyes but i tired to hold it back by raising my head

u can hear it from my voice that i'm down

took that courage to ask u that serious Q

u know what that Q is bahh ?

Although ur answer is NO~

but how come i still feel the insecure in my heart

It hurts & it bleeds ~

The freedom that u WANTED~

The freedom that u NEEDED~

The freedom u LONG FOR~

WHAT HAPPEN ???

Lots more things in my heart but hard to express it out

======================================

I'm crying out to God

For the peace

For the Joy

For the Comfort

For the Love

Take away all the confusion

clear my doubts

clean my heart

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Do you even care ???

2008-08-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

Seriously, i dunno if i should be sad or i should be angry
Should i cry or should i bang the wall ...
Sometimes i just feel so irritated when you give me a last minute thing
it's always so last minute that i just dunno how to react...
I've waited and waited
then there u go and cancel it off
what u wan me to do now ?

The best way and the best thing that u can do is not to reply
just to avoid or even say " I dunno what to say "
AHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!
WHATEVER !!!

I know i'm sick
so ?
No big deal wad
everyone also will sick de wad
But u also know i love it when people care about me
When people show that they love me
SHOW ------- See this word ???

I actually thought of not sms ing you wait until u sms me
but i dunno what the hell is wrong with me
i worry that u keep playing then forget to study then i go sms u =.="
when i am still angry/sad somemore ...
lalala ~ whatever ~

I dunno if i'm in the wrong or u're in the wrong
i just know i feel terribly today
whateva i do seems so wrong
i dunno why. i dunno why .

thought that things seems ok le
wanna concern only but the attitude u gave made me lalala ~ again
not like i say dun let u play wad
just reminding u only then u shout " i very tired la "
=.= " =.= " =.= " =.="
how should i react now ???

Guess I'm just doing too much ...

Sad Sad,Happy Happy~~

2008-08-17T11:57:00.000+08:00

Smile - Connie Talbot

Hmm it's been quite some time ever since i last post
due to Exams and stuff
Many things has been happening in my life
Unhappy things,Dissapointment etc .
I Have been Spritually very dry
But now ok liao larhh so don't worry

Tuesday:
After school went to meet Darr Darr
cause Wed got SS exam
then i ask him to teach me
Suprisingly,
all the things that he had taught me came out for exam !!!
He only taught me Inference,Compare & Contrast, Usefulness
and exam came out exactly these three
in the same order somemore
haha ~
Went to Bedok library to study
we joke joke abit first
i keep asking him IQ Question
but all lame lame that kind
After that he scold me
Darr : U come here study ur SS or come here ask me joke ar ???
Then i Diam Diam quickly take out notepad le
hahahaha ...
One thing very Lame when he teach me
He ownself compose things lorhh ...
Let me show u what he had written

Usefulness:
-Write how useful is the source in providing what the Qns says
-Write how not useful is the source in providing what the Qns says
Quote from other sources and support or refute the source
EG.Qns: How useful is source D in telling u that Michelle is chio ?
Ans: Source D is useful in telling us that Michelle is chio because the source says " she is damm chio "
Ans: Source D is not useful in telling us Michelle is Chio because it does tell us how chio she is ,the source only says " she is damm chio "
Source D is useful /not useful in telling us Michelle is chio because it is supported/does not support by source.Source D says " bla bla bla " while Source Bla says " bla bla bla "
LOL
Aiyo my Baby is so damm lame lorhh
make me keep laughing lorhh

Wednesday:
After cca ,
went to Parkway de Mac to celebrate Jie yun's b day
haha Amy & Nat prepare a susprise for her
we sang her a birthday song haha
she was blushing LOL
we sang so loudly that almost everyone was looking at us lorhh
haha went home around 5 45 liddat cause next day still got exam de so can't go home too late
Felicia wasn't able to come for CCA
so she never join us for dinner also
Hmmm i find myself that day very guai lorhh
cause i so many weeks never go CCA liao but on Wed i went !!!
I know no big deal larhh
but ya lorhh
to me it's like something larhh

Thursday:
Got Bio & Chem Exam
T__T
I fail my Chem cause i forget to bring home my chem textbook to study
so totally never touch on chem lorhh

Baby made me feel so touched today
i was crying on my way home lorhh
On the bus somemore
This is the conversation with Darr when i'm on the bus going home
Me : BABY !!! I failed my CHEM lorhh :(
Darr:Then Bio leh ?
ME:Bio still dunno... But i got a bad feeling
Darr:I love you darr!!! Don't feel down over ur chem...
just sudy harder for ur next subjects ... :) ME: Hmmm Darr i cannot make it larhh. Fail so many subject.I feel so dumb
Darr:Ur not dumb...Ur juz sleepy =P
ME:Fail so many sub leh ... NOT DUMB???
Darr: Darr cheer up
la..u fail this time still got EOYe ma...then now u juz pay more attention in class and study harder lor
ME:Haix dunno la sometimes just don't have the motivation to study hard or even pay attention in class.
Darr: I also liddat. My parents only ask me study.I pass the test they also nv praise me ...But JUS THINK OF ME !!! hehehe I will praise u if u do well de ma ^^
ME:Don't make me cry on bus larhh.Later they think i siao de Muacks ! Thx Darr! I LOVE YOU !
Darr:Haha I love you too Er is your English Good ?
ME:Heh Heh My situational writing got 19/30 nia so not counted good .
Darr: Hmmm... Okay la 19...cuz u still got two more year to practice...Darr Darr Guai la. Later buy something for you then pass to u on sat lor ...
ME: Heh heh heh Darr you make me smile le la :) I LOVE YOU !

Friday:
as usual
CELL GROUP !!! A SUPER GOOD MSG !!! [[KEEPING YOUR FAITH]]

Saturday:
(16.08.08 Sat ) Me, My brother & mummy went to cycle
never go for service yesterday cause as having fever & keep coughing
poor me !!! Gonna miss my Usher training 3 lorhh
sad sad ~~~
Christopher they complete liao leh !!!
i still have to wait till next week T__T
OK larhh back ...
Yupp as i was saying ,Went to cycle ...
i wasn't feeling well so after cycle awhile i sat down & rest le
I look up to the sky
feeling the wind gently blowing on my face
suddenly i feel down
Just some stuff thats making me think
[[ Making The Right Decision ]]
These Four words affect my mood
hmmm...
I know it's telling me something
something ~

T__T SOBX SOBX ...
High Fever !!!
Cough Cough !!!
FLU FLU !!!
aiyoyo
my whole family sick then i also kena
tsk tsk tsk ~

I need someone to hold me tight

2008-08-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

Cry On My Shoulder - Unknown

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide
==================================
I need someone to just give me a hug
so tight until i can't breathe
Will there be a person to do that ?

I need a shoulder to cry on
someone's shirt to hold my tears
Will there be a person who is willing to do that ?

I'm not being Emo again...
just need to let my emotions out
Endless fights hurts my heart
When will it stop ???

As i come into ur pressence each day
I pray hard that ur Love will just fill me
Make me whole
Lord i need you now ~

lalalala ~

2008-08-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

The Birthday Song - Corrinne May

It's been like around 5 days since i last post ???
sorry sorry ...
was kind of busy larhh
so yarhh

First lets start today's post with a birthday greeting !
hahaha ...
yupp yupp
would like to say a HAPPY B DAY to my ohsosuperdupergreatloveable KOR !!!
hahaha ~
really very happy to get to know u even more as u share with me about u,ur life etc.
No need to thank me for helping u solve the doubts in ur heart all that
I'm being a friend,a very good friend right haha
someone whom u can talk to

Moving on ...
had biology lesson on tuesday
it was so OMG larhh
Ms Koh brought us to the lab and say that we going to Cut a SHEEP's HEART lorhh
wth wth larhh
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
So disgusting lorhh
smelly smelly also
but overall had fun haha ~

After school went to science centre with 302
this trip was susgested by our class haha
reach there le~
First destination : Omni theatre
Second destination : Main science centre
Third destination : Walk in the world of water thingy
haha took quite alot of pic
we all siao siao le
go there talk pic only
lalalalalalalalalalalalala ~~~
so yarhh lorhh
after that go back school liao
this trip somehow made me really learn to relax myself
cause i was kind of stressed up with my upcoming CA3 & F&N
but felt better after this trip =^-^=

NOW ~
Lets look at some of the pic i took during bio lesson and during our trip to science centre

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Can u spot me ???

I KISS THE DINO !!! awwwww ~~~

LIVING RAIN

2008-08-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

Living Rain - Parachute Band

I'm in Love with this song !!!
Living rain
The lyrics is so meaningful
Really enjoy listening to it for over & over again
cause i'm addicted to it haha

Today went for F.O.P WOOTS !!!
actually thought i going alone de but last minute CG cancelled so at least now got ppl go with me (:
was super super excited for it !!!
started off with praise songs & den worship abit ~~~
A VERY GOOD MSG FROM DR.REV MARK CONNER
-PEACE
-ENOURAGEMENT
-COMFORT
-FEAR OF GOD

These are the four things we learn about today
was touched by the pressence of GOD
I need the comfort,the peace from u Lord
I lift up every burden into ur hands
Clear all my emotions,Hurts...

After service headed home & here i am posting lorhh (:
sry ar today post kind of little cause i am super super tired after a long day of school then still went for service
but i was impacted
now i know how i am suspose to encourage other ppl
what i need to do or rather what i can do for them

Was very happy that catherine came to church with me today
we had real fun & i really get to know her abit more
and know what i need to do to help her
really help her get to know God even better
& really know how much God actually Love her

I wan BENNY HIN's BOOKS:
Good Morning , Holy spirit
Got discount also 3 books for just $ 10
but T_T i can cry le cause i evern $1 also don't have le

HEAL ME

2008-07-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

Healer - Hillsong Live

Jesus You're all i need
Let me learn how to guard my heart
Let me have a pure heart
A heart longing for more of you
A heart just wanna serve u even more
Let me know that i can depend on you no matter what happen
=========================================
Lord I feel very very burden because of somethings
I feel so tired
Physically tired
Emotionally tired
Teach me how to handle things better
anniot my words when i start to talk to my friends or people around me
Teach me how to start letting go of somethings
Feel me with LOVE . Over-flowing ~
Come & heal me from my hurts & pain
I'm going through alot of things
but i choose to hang on
clinging to the cross
Grant me the strength to carry on

Lord i just wanna lift up every burden that i have to you
let me feel peace
let me feel your comfort
come touch my life
let my life be filled with joy
take away all my sorrows
===========================================
I apologise for not posting for quite some time
kind of stressed up
many things happen
that make me feel kind of discourage

[[ I'm In Love with you ,Everyday i long to know you more ]]

HAIX~

2008-07-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

Feeling Kind of moody these few days
- STRESS ( CA3 coming le larh! )
- Worries
T_T

Wasn't really in the mood to post
cause super super tired.tired.tired !!!
everyday go back home drop dead on bed then feel like sleeping le
======================================
God Is My strength !!! JYJYJY!!!
======================================
Thx Janelle bao beii
hahaha
love.love.love.love~~~
thx for the watch sia
orange in colour somemore
my fav colour!!!
i just feel like giving you a big big hug !
Feel so LOVED!!!

WOOTS~

Thx For everything my Dear ~

Thx For the encouragement that u gave

Thx for all the nagging u gave LOL

woots!!!

2008-07-19T06:46:00.000+08:00

[[ Currently Not Home ]]
hahahah...
Finally can over-night at my friends's house
woots...
although my daddy didnt look really happy la of cos...
straight away back from cell-group then go home pack my things then went off again leh...
whole day outside leh
Reach destination at 12 liddat
FUN FUN FUN !!!
Just woke up not long ago [[ TIME : 6:00 AM ]]
The air con cold until i keep Ah Choo-ing T_T

SAT LE !!!
CAN'T WAIT FOR TODAY'S SERVICE !!!
yesyesyes !!!

阿爸天父

2008-07-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

阿爸天父 (Abba Father) - City Harvest Church

Hmmm kind of feeling low

2008-07-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

These few days Feeling moody moddy de
dunno why
Just a burden in my heart
What is it What is it ???
Is it telling me something ???
Lord give me a answer ~~~
=======================================
Lord Let me have a pure heart,
A simple heart
A heart just longing for more of you
=======================================
Though it's over now
but the akwardness is still there
Haix ~~
I have the FEAR now
what can be done ???
what can i do ???
I'm Fear of getting too close to you already
I'm not treating you as a spare tire
You mean so much to me
Precious~ Just so Precious T_T
=======================================
You came and poured yourself so free
Your blood washed away my shame
And now i can live again
i'm more of You and less of me
=======================================
I'm falling sick again T_T
went under the rain yesterday
sobx sobx
then feeling giddy giddy de
Flu & cough is coming back again
I don't wan to be so weak always
falling sick so often
Haix~

Now is 8:49am in the morning
Having F&N lesson
dunno who the hell go take my F&N file
Lost all the research all that
all my hardwork all gone T_T
have to redo again dateline due soon lor
awww man !!!
can stress till die sia
choing-ing for my studies also
my MATH,GEO,CHEM & BIO !!!
all cannot make it de

I know U Love me so

2008-07-13T04:41:00.000+08:00

I just wanna lift up every single thing into your hands Lord
I know It's not going to be easy to go through this again
But i put my trust in you
I know & i know
U will be here for me

I am blessed to have ppl around me to guide me
Thank you for placing them into my life

It's time for me to grow even more
Maybe this way it will be better for the both of us
or maybe it will be better for u three
I'm sorry maybe my way of phrasing my words is wrong but I'm really Sorry if it did hurt you
by not realising it myself or something

===================================================================
Lord I pray for myself
I Pray that u will just fill me with ur love
Let me feel u so strongly
I'm willing to serve you
I wan to know u even more
Grant me the strength to go through each and every trails
let me walk out of that trail with my faith strengthen & sharpen
I know you will guide me through
Take control over my emotion
Lord i don't wan to be so emotional
Let me know how i can handle things better
Grant me the wisdom of yours Lord
Grant me Power
Let me know that ur Love is enough
U're my everything
Teach me how to Love even more
Let me carry the Love that u have for people
Let me learn how to reach out to even more people
impact people's life
Teach me how i can reach out to the hurt & the broken
Heal their emotion hurts & pain
Mend the Brokeness in many people
Let me learn how to speak the right thing
that will just impact someone's life
Lord let me learn how to humble myself even more
Lord keep in my mind that serving you is not about position
because the higher i wan to be the more humble i must be
Let me truly understand what is the meaning of that
and not side track and dunno where i am suspose to go to
===================================================================

With You I'm never alone
Darkness may come, trials seem so long
You are the light I depend on
Through valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You

Wulalalala ><

2008-07-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

So Hot - 원더걸스 (Wonder Girls)
I feel high high high today
LOL
now in F&N class again
woots ..
Slack !!!
Listen song & Game ^^

EMDD!!!

2008-07-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

Here are some photos that i managed to take during EMDD ^^

I look so retared !!!

WOOTS!!!

2008-07-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

Rev.Dr Mike Connell came to City Harvest Church !!!
woots was sooooooo looking forward to his coming
before he come we start to prepare our heart,preparing ourself
PRAYING & FASTING ...
really really works !!!
Went for both Saturday's service at Expo hall 8 & Sunday's service at Jurong west
It was WHAO!!!
really get to experience something i've never experience it before in my life
I really get to know how real God is
How much he really Love me
I feel so Loved, Touched & i just keep crying non-stop
Being able to really lift up my all to him
SET FREE~~~
I totally went Wooohooo~~~

I am so so lame

2008-07-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

A brand new day A brand new start

Yay it's F&N lesson again ...
I'm not doing my work lor haha
playing com listen song again
cause my work is already done ...
but at home only la ...
I'm so guai !!!
hahaha...
dunno y feeling abit high today

Woke up at 5 am to pray
These few weeks willl be fasting & praying ,fasting &praying ,meeting friends after friends ...
Prayer meeting all that ...
woots...
so choing lor ...
But at least now i find my life more meaningful
rather than staying at home doing nth
at least now everyday i know i got a purpose
I know what i wan to do
always looking forward to the next day
I just love it this way =^-^=
Heart Of A Servent - City Harvest Church

2008-06-29T16:17:00.000+08:00

These few days also nv post ...
sorry sorry ><

Friday
whole day prepare for EMDD
performed 6 show lor
super duper tired @_@
faint ~~~

Saturday
as usual went for service
at night actually got make-up cell group by Jiayi de
but dunno why cancelled
T_T i wan my last lesson of bible study also !!!
i wan move to christian lifestyle !!!!
Weiling Weiling i'm calling out for u !!!

Today
went meet Darr in the morning for lunch
actually janelle coming de
but she suddenly got sth on so cannot make it

hmmmm
was seriously a cannot make it day for me
i cried on my way to meet Darr & cried on the way back home
tears just keep falling
Non stop de
really non stop de
my heart is in a mess now
k la ...
I'm really thinking abt things
alot alot alot of things

I need to clear my emotion

LOVE <333

2008-06-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

*YAWN*

Now super feel like sleeping de lor

cause super super tiring !!!

today choing choing for rehersal at the Arts house

somemore ytd sleep so late

so get to school eyes can't open lor

in bus i giddy giddy de

super not feeling well

The EMDD girls studied until 11.45am

then get to the canteen to have our lunch

i didn't eat but got drink soya milk (woots!!! My FAV!!!)

around 12.30pm liddat we depart for the arts house le

practice practice

tired!!!!

it wasn't so good after all

dunno la

i think i act not good

lousy lousy

as a pregnant women

it sure isn't easy

hahaha

Finish the whole full run around 5.45pm liddat

went for debrief

then board the bus around 6.15pm

reach back school le

Felicia suggest to go PP for dinner

actually dun wan go de cause very tired

but see the time still kind of early
so went to eat with them

SORRY darr

i dun know how to take care of myself

sick still go eat KFC

everytime sleep so late also

made u angry

sorry sorry
so ya lor

I dunno how to take care of myself so u must take care of me le LOL

After meal

Me, Felicia & nat went to the toilet again

and of cos zhi lian again lor

hahahaha

Really had fun in the toilet crapping & taking pictures tgt

I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!

2008-06-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

WEEEE I Love Them<333
GATHER all the Zhilian Girls

❤ U're Love by me !!!
[[ Zhi Lian ]] Opps I cover Amy's mouth...

PSPS !!!
Felicia is Missing
OMG got GHOST!!! LOL

^^^ <<<>
Love Love<333

Amy, ME & Felicia <333
[[ My Nuer ^^ <333>

[[ We very Random hahaha... Take Picture in Toilet LOL ]]

❤23.06.08

2008-06-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today was really a tired day for me !!!
can't make it le la
hahahahaha.
Never eat much things today cause in need for money so need to save
haix haix haix
Nvm la
It's worth it to save that money
yay!!!

so fun so fun
DJ from 88.3Jia Fm came to our school for assembly =^-^=
somehow have the interest to become a DJ le
LOL
dunno la
but my ultimate vision is to be a full time church song leader =>_<= Or singer/entertainer/actress??? ba

Mrs sim introduce to our school Sports Chanbara
YES YES YES
I'm so gonna be in it
Mummy & Darr Darr agree with it
But feel kind of bad cause this additional Sport is on monday de
then darr darr end school early
if i join then means i can't make it to meet darr for 6 mondays wor
Lesson will start next week
So Looking forward to it !!!

Fill My life with colours & rainbow
Let everyday be such a exciting one
I LOVE YOU LORD
Let me know you more
I wan to be more hunger for you

Eeeeks ><

2008-06-24T00:44:00.000+08:00

Opps Opps...
sorry all for not posting for quite a couple of days le
cause alot of things happen then was tired like OMG !!!
ok where should i start ???

Thursday went for morning prayer meeting woots !!!
Was abit late la but still manage to pray
Fri morning also same thing went for mornig prayer
woke up super super early de lor
i only slept for 1 -2 hour only
cause need to wake up at 4 to get prepared
I made full use of the time to pray !!!
Feel so whao !!!
Refresh !!!

Fri got CG so went home very late.
Bath then talk to darr
Talk to Baobeii Janelle & i cried cried cried like dunno what
Talked abt alot of things la
Share to each other abt somethig la .
Make me realise something very important also that i think i need to give in to
After talk talk .
went audi to relax myself
clear my mind all that then yayaya
BOOM to bed le ...

Next day, Sat
woke up at only 12 plus i think
cause Haiya Darr never come find me then never call me up also .
so i pig lor...
dun care just sleep like nobody cares...
woke up le then get prepared to go meet Limei & Weiling there all
But Me & Janelle was late ><

Reach there at only 3.15 i think .
George talk talk to Me,Qinglin,Janelle , XR & heshen abt the group de la .
then rush rush to CIC class le ...
It was Great ...
But have to rush rush to write the notes ...
as i didn't buy the CIC book ...
Broke liao la so no money to buy
Nvm lor ...
Hmmm but Got book of course better la

Went for service
today pastor kong talk abt SERVANTHOOD
i was like whao
absorb absorb ><
went for fellowship after that
me & Janelle never eat cause dunno what to eat
but decided to go paya lebar KFC to eat later on =^-^=

Around 9.35 liddat go liao
then eat le all that Go home
wait for darr to be back from xue wee's house
Talk to Darr...
we chat, Toked quite alot. Fight fight fight
Made me Cry again ...
HAIYO~

actually wanna ask mummy sunday morning go eat breakfast de
but dunno y she rejected me lor T_T
where can liddat de la ..
Then nvm lor ...
ask darr if can at least meet for lunch
He said alright
hmmm..
Mood: okok cause just fight with darr ma .
then haiya nvm~

Sunday meet Darr at 12 sth at airport
One of our usual handout place
so yupp ...
When meet him that time ...
I just suddenly feel the hurt in heart
and i just hug Darr's shoulder & cry again
=>_<= sry la... I cry baby ma

After Lunch Darr pei me go bedok
he took 28 go meet Gavin & Kenneth they all
so i go meet Janelle lor ...
While waiting for his bus
he ask me help him take out his ear stick
clear the thing liao then ask me put back
eeeeyer la

Told Darr his ear infection la he dun listen
keep saying it's not it's not
Keep bleeding then got that yellow yellow thing u say it' s normal or kena infection liao
tell me la ...
tsktsktsk
After he got on the bus
I slowly slowly
really slowly de lor ...
walk to bus 196
as i going PP to meet Janelle
Janelle that time still at home lor =.=

reach PP le then walk walk
saw alot of B day present all that
NO need fan what to buy for present liao !!!
ahhahhaha
Finally Janelle reach PP le
suspose to meet her at 2
Guess what time she came
: 3 sth then reach
1 whole hour leh
hahhahaha
nvm la ~

I feel abit Unwell
Feel like vomiting
so tell Janelle that i go home first lor ...
Then Went home liao
wait for daddy to be home
then go out eat dinner
I ate alot that day
really alot
u won't believe what i ate
Sure shocked de lor
hahahahahaha...

SO yupp after dinner
Home .
then forget what i do liao
then talk to Darr
Only talk awhile cause he super super tired
Today sweet sweet ><
I LOVE YOU DARR!!!

Finally come to today de liao ....
Today first day of school
OMGOMG
it's so so fast can
T_T
went to school
didn't really do anything la
so yupp
change dao SS & BIO & CHEM & GEO de teacher
dunno still got change annot

After school
went for CCA
modify my character abit
I now become a pregnant mother
LOL la
then so hard to act like a pregnant women
cause that big big thing infront very eeeyer
cannot bend down also
must act like really one pregnant mother =.=

ok la
After all
it's Fun Fun Fun la
After CCA
went to sit swing that is in our school de
FUNFUNFUN
i swing swing swing
feel so shuang lor
haahahahaha

Left school..
then me,amy,felicia & natellie went to PP to eat
Ate Long John combo 1
waaa
SUPER FULL DE LOR
then went to second floor toilet to slack slack
pic tmr then i update cause now tired le

so yupp yupp EMDD coming le
now this whole week also practice practice
sian sian de
can't make it for team meeting & CG
sad de lor!!!
then my BS also cannot make it le ><
Looking forward to tmr
a new bright day

[[ Lord i wan to experience more of you
I'm addicted to the fellowship time with you ]]

Still sick !!!

2008-06-18T15:28:00.000+08:00

[[ I found myself drowning in your Beautiful Love ]]

Today woke up super early cause need to go for CCA

Zzzzzzzzz...

Actually dun wan go de cause in the morning wake up still got fever

then feeling Gong Gong de.. Blur blur =>_<=

Darr & Janelle both ask me dun go for CCA

but no choice ...

cause if dun go then scared will kena kick out from EMDD de performance...

Last time i keep pon tang ma then now cannot le...

[[ CRY for me !!! ]]

Ok lor nvm nvm worst thing is that i woke up late lor .

Then need to waste money take cab there $9.70 sia!!!!

ARGH!!! i heart pain pain ...

Went to school thought i late le but heng not late...

went around to search for the CCA venue

can't find... Zzzz..

saw rebecca so went to search tgt

walk up & down the stairs...

haix to the maxx..

really make me wan to faint le

my whole body mei li le lor T_T

then continue walk walk

funny de lor...

as we walk more & more members join us to search

hahahahahaha...

then at last we tired liao .

wait at foyer

then see teacher slowly walk to us ...

SHE IS LATE LOR!!!

wth wth ><

During CCA slack like hell lor cause no teacher.

our CCA leader also slack slack de...

I play hp ,play psp ,listen music.

thinking might as well stay at home hao le lor .

waste my time only niaa

After CCA

Me,Felicia,Amy& Olivia went PP for lunch

lots of jokes along the way .

me & Olivia fight fight fight

hahahahaha

so childish la!!!

Went to Food court to eat...

lalalalalalalala...

Time to go home le ...

while me & amy was still waiting for bus

it start to rain le

lucky my bus came liao

Poor Amy my Dear Laopo =>_<=

but still ...

halfway home

sit in the bus i think abt lots of things

thinking of my own spritual walk

thinking of my BOY<3

My tears drop again ...

it was raining so heavily

my head still giddy giddy de...

haix haix haix .

got down the bus ...

still raining .

NO choice lor

have to walk in th rain ....

awwww

romantic sia... NOT !!!

i was all soak le lor...

T_T

Darr darr not happy le ><

cause i still having fever de

still go walk in the rain

heh heh~

SORRY DARR!!!

went home go bath

take temperture ...

OMG la ... temperture went HIGH~~~

sobbx sobbx ...

38.0 c liao lor ...lalalalalala...

DIE DIE DIE =X_X=

HAPPY 5th MONTH to my baobeii JANELLE & XR

last long long ~

U two dun always fight fight fight le ...

will shang he qi de u know

so must Love one another more

& please show it

=^-^=

like what i've told u Janelle~

in a relationship it's best that u all can hold one another during bad times all that...

dun always little things then fight liao la.

u two must always remember

XR Love GOD = Love Janelle

Janelle Love GOD = Love XR

so whateva u do must always put GOD first

LOVE ALL ~~~

signing off <333

SICK !!!

2008-06-18T09:00:00.000+08:00

T_T I'm sick again !!!
FEVER.FLU.COUGH @_@
Just hate to be sick cause will feel very weak & no energy to do my things .

YTD night slept super early
hmmm...
Around 11 plus i think .
cause normally i will sleep very very late de.
Those who know me well will know la ....
Dun wanna say out cause if Darr see le sure will scold me le =>_<=
yupp yupp.

Ytd before i sleep Darr ask me call him & we chat chat chat ok la didn't say much things cause i very blur le [[ Eaten medicine ... GUAI BA ??? ]] so diam diam... Darr was watching channel 55,eating potato chips & drinking *POKKA GREEN TEA* must be more specific u know .
It's POKKA GREEN TEA cause it's my fav!!! LOL

Then i somehow dunno what to do le can't sleep also...
[[Too early liao not used to it ]] so asked darr to sing me to sleep.
Darr say dunno what to sing

T_T then ok lor nvm then i say count sheep sheep for me to sleep. so he started counting " 1 meh meh,2 meh meh,3 meh meh ~~~" count until 55 meh meh i think .
hmmmm dunno forget liao . i think is either 55 or 56 la then know he tired tired le so say nvm la I go sleep le then he give me night night kiss then kup phone liao.

But i still can't sleep . stare at the celling for dunno how lonh stone there. then remember need to call DIDI de . so called him . Then he ask me whether still sick annot .i also dunno how to answer cause say still sick then he will worry say not sick then like very fake cause where got so fast recover liao de =>_<=
So no choice lor have to say i still sick

same thing hahahha i ask DIDI to sing me to sleep but he say he dunno how to sing de so he say wanna read bedtime story for me
DIDI went to search for story book then say wan read to me le but guess what ? He read a chinese book . But alot of words he dunno how to read LOL
[[Sorry la Di i just can't stop laughing at the way u read ]] so nvm he say count sheep hao le . so again he start to count sheep .But this time maybe i before that darr count that time i kind of blur blur le so this time DIDI count until i really fall asleep . Dunno he count until where then he kup phone hahahhahaha... I still baby la need to count sheep then can sleep LOL !!!

Today morning Darr came my house .
I feel so LOVED because he brought *POKKA GREEN TEA* for me !!!
one more thing ... after i open door for him i went back to bed cause feeling very giddy. He came & sit by my bedside,pull me up and lie on his shoulder ,hug me & give me a kiss on my forehead =^-^=

Darr dunno how to cook Zhou so i have to cook on my own ok la nvm hahahahha...
At around 12 sth liddat ,
JANELLE MY BAOBEII DAUGHTER CAME!!!
She & XR brought zhou with some vegetables for me to eat
& Janelle brought a packet of " Liang tea " for me to drink
that is what she always make for XR when he is Sick ...
ok la although it's ku ku de . But is till finish it ><
THANKS U TWO !!!
MAKE ME FEEL SO LOVED!!!
I <3 U BOTH
heh heh ~

Darr went home around 4 sth
He going to the hopeless's house later so nvm la ...
hmmmm..
they maybe going to swim!!!
I'm so jealous !!!
cause i wan go swim!!!
sobx sobx i like dunno how many months never swim liao !!!

I wanna move on
I dun wanna lose focus AGAIN
I dun wan to stone here anymore
Take control over my emotion
Let me once again know what's my purpose,My vision
I wan back my Fire for u Lord
I wan to serve u more
Give me double annoiting

I know i can make it there~

I'm back in action !!!

2008-05-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

Hey hey everyone !!!
I'm back in action again ...
back to blogging ...
=^-^= MISS ME BA ???
say yes say yes LOL

Currently Thinking abt some things ...
hmmmm...
so dun really have the mood to post ...
=X=X=X=X=X=X
will be back posting again later k ^^

LOVE LOVE ~~